Wish, I could call that thing LIFE

Ohhhhhh......its been like almost a year since I wanted to write this , Finally atlast...I thought, I would do it before it gets erased from my memory.
Last summer was quite a memorable one for me ,and Cairns trip made it more special and Bungee made it much more special .Folks!!!! its one helluva a ride!!! ,and I almost missed it , would have been a costly miss . That for me, was one of the best experiences in my life and I guess i'll cherish it for a while and hope I get to do the thing again.

ON THE TRIP

Finally the last day of our trip was there and to my ecstasy it was not raining, and I was hoping it won't for the rest of the day( As Bungee is not allowed in wet conditions). It was nearly a half hour drive from Cairns and all these while my eager eyes were looking at the sky expecting not see any dark clouds.

AJ Hackett( Bungee Place) its in amazing locale ,one get the feel as if they are in some uninhabited rain forest,,, it was quite picturesque .Diving ranch was nearly 60 meters above from we were standing, there was a waterpool right underneath the diving point with pickup raft ,and nice cute chick with tiny shorts..:)) taking care of the raft .

I was all very charged and excited ,was trying to get the feel of the things,then figured out that the only way up to the top is wodden stairs ( imagine 15 minutes of taking stairs....:) ), So once you are up on there, your legs are tied with rubber strings then you...simply jump...easy enufffff!!! then you shoot down into the pool like a missile !!!you will be immersed in water till shoulders for a fraction of a second. Then you will be tossed up and down for a while depending on the inertia ,your body mass etc....so blab aside!!!

What really fascinated me was people shooting straight in to pool..and staying underwater ,upside down ...I just wanted experience that feeling !!!!!

So I took on the eternal journey of getting on to the top of the ranch....and believe me it was eternal!!!!!!thats the only worst part about it. With in 10 minutes I was all ready with harness and all the stufff!!....the guy over there helped me on to the edge, As i cant move swiftly because my legs are tied...AND......People!!!!!!( meri phat gayeeee) but it was not really scary scary...it seemed much more than the height I visualised or At least the height it looked from the ground..
thankfully I didnt take more than a couple of secs to stabilize and realise the fact no matter what I wont die....:)))))

Then......The moment....... I waved at the camera and had a look on to the ground and ...................the leap.........................uffffff....ohhhhhhhhh....... I felt air brushing thru my ears ......
the weightlessness was amazing.......I wasnt feeling any strings...( I meant Soul).......My mind was blank no thought what so ever ,Just waiting for the pause and the pullup..I was in a state of water no form ....
...water falling from heights with out any form and only with rage
..water not worried about the path its gonna tread
....water not worried about the barriers to cross.
I wish living life would give me the same feel....!!!!
Wish I COULD CALL THIS THING LIFE...........this feeling

My heart and mind joy were racing with utmost joy ..I was rushing thru air......rushing to take the on the water
but......
the dreaded rubber strings cheated on me ...unfotunately my pull up came before hitting the water ( Guy above (I mean Bungee Guy,Not GOD) was playing it bit too safe with me:)) )
then I was tossed around like a chicken leg for few pulls and throws, hot chick in the raft picked me up.

Too cut the story short ...I took another two jumps but unfortunately the guy failed to dip me on both the occassions .
And finally if some one asks, how would I be happy or how I want to live my life.... I Would be happy if I live entire life with same sort of feeling I had in those 3-5 secs

cheers folks

LUCK!!!!!,What the (F)Luck

Luck!!!!!My non existent brain has been lately bothered by this adj ,or what ever!!!!

So Luck!!! what exactly is it?????

According to Oxford thesaurus it is The chance happening of fortunate or adverse events

but does outcome of any event stand on its own , is it so independent of every thing???

Well ...I don't think so....
( before you jump to your assumption that Iam some one who is fully content with his life ,you are wrong....if I was I would'nt be blogging on crap like this)

Luck for me is a mythical entity or phenomenon which was conveniently framed by some intelligent looser....

I for some one who honestly believes that we bring in the Luck to cover up our inadequacies ( knowledge,anticipation..etc) . Iam no saint either, Iam some one who was always conveniently
hiding under this umbrella for the most part of my life,Its only when I hit the rock bottom I started to retrospect ..then came to conclusion that its was not luck and it were the decisions I made
you could easily argue that every one needs bit of luck in their decision , I don't agree!!!!
what they need is the complete knowledge and the ability to anticipate the outcomes out of it, ,the complete vision for outcome through out the course and most important of all is they(winners) were all having very good contingency plans.
Some do argue that there are people who have hit the bulls with out having the above mentioned attributes ,,,,, I say coincidence...:)) and plzzz don't attribute that to luck!!!
because ...honestly ..In most cases its our perception that the person hasn't done enough work on that.
And if you are following these success by coincidence cases You are admitting to your self that you are not competent to take the task head on and are on look out for shortcuts, so there itself killing most your chances and allowing the theory of probability to kick in...and mate!!!! probability Sucks

To conclude finally ,Just a Query..
Australia winning 3 worldcups in a row.....can that be called lucky.....?????

England winning Ashes in 2005 was that lucky....????

For me both of the above acheivements were results of pure planning with enough knowledge..

Cheers folks.....

will see ya next time with something cheeky and spicy

Donno what this can be called( May be my worst post)

I was about to board my flight in fifteen minutes I was excited ,this will be my first trip back to india after 4 years 6 months , Just then I thought I would give a call to my brother to check if he needs anything particular from duty free and He did say something which added an immense weight and terrible pain all along the journey of 18 hrs, "My father is living his last few moments".

As I have said in my previous post I don't want to go personal so I will be stopping the story of my misfortune here and carry on with actual topic. The reason I mentioned the particular tragedy is that I want you to be aware of circumstances and events that might have made my view point more cynical than they actually are.

If Iam in my senses I guess today is my 56thday in India ,Hyderabad to be precise and I guess I had a lenghthy enough stay to have my opinion on metamorphosis of my city,people,country..etc
As I mentioned earlier I been out of india for say like nearly 5 years . All these while I been hearing about things back home ,IT Boom, Continental Cuisenes , Multiplexes,European cars..ufff uffff enough ohhhh we did made progress by leaps or did we.....?????

I guess I will run out of the my fingers if I start counting the big tragedies or the issues which were arising every day(Bihar Floods,Karnataka Conversions, Delhi BombBlasts) and pity that picture wasn't this bad when I left the country, and what surprises me the most is nothing stops anyone living their life (I guess not many Options there) inspite of the everything .

On one hand some of my fellow countrymen are driving foriegn cars and trying hard to inject themsleves the firangee(1st world) culture,on the otherhand few are killing themsleves on the name of religion conversions ,ghosh !!!!whats wrong here...? why so much of disparity in not only wealth but also in common social ethics..???

As every day passes by I hardly could find any quality in anything around me( don't get me wrong Iam not talking about hygeine or that sort of stuff ...Iam very well aware I belong to this soil and these are all my people and would not fault them for what they are....because that is what Iam as well). what I meant here is there is no soul be it in Television channels(News Particularly) ,Movies or way of life (of Everyone from Rickshaw puller to Software engineer, some of the might be getting easy bucks,but at what cost!!!! I reckon they are forgetting themselves once they are in to this race or game.

I read(I assume most of it) an article from old news paper ( Ironically it was a wrapper for peanuts) it was written by then L&T's MD ( cant remember his name),accusing Indian IT companies for making India technically braindead .The point in it was paying these astronomical salaries for just passed out graduates and even undergraduates, which has resulted in decrease in number of students pursuing technical disciplines other than IT, which in turn has caused skill shortage in other technical ares. The most striking observation out of that article was that " All this development we are seeing is a glossy wrapper around food which is being contaminated".

(GuysI can go on on and on...and prove my slef to be a pathetic pascimist .There is lot I want to write( Delhi Blasts,Bihar floods, Karnataka and Orissa. violence.....But this post seems to be never Ending...If there are any enhacements will post them )


There is nothing wrong, for a country to have Issues and problems and infact how a country deals with those issues will scale strength in its System .

I personally feel India is a bubble waiting to burst, Its alright to have absolute capitalist economy
for country with medium size budget so in hour of crisis its treasury can feed its people. But I doubt if India will be able to manage that, Its well and good as long as these educated youth are pushed in to this race....but once picture starts to color itself red ( i.e if things start to get bad...they will ,As 100 crore populated country is living by serving merely 32 crore once 32 crore cannot afford services or dont need services thats when ....) they will question system( which till now was priviliged ..as most were not Knowledgable and those who were couldnt be bothered) and the frustrations will burst....

Hope Iam wrong my friends...... No one wants to burn their house..but I can smell Kerosine all around mine

Link to AM naiks article
http://fusions.wordpress.com/2007/11/15/it-sector-not-contributing-to-indian-economy-am-naik/

GOD!!! THIS IS NOT FAIR

Last Sunday was my first day at gym after Christmas break (i.e after 3 months).

Even though it was hard I managed to drag my body up to gym and was planning to go through my routine which mainly comprises of cardio, bit of weights and some stretches to knock off, my cardio usually has around 4km jog and 5km cycling.

I usually knock off my 4km jog in about 17-20 minutes, I was aware that this being my first day after 3 months it will be hard for me to accomplish that in 20 minutes so I was ready to give myself another 10 minutes. But to my shocking I started to feel shin splits after 0.5km, but I kept going trying to ignore the pain, then around 1km mark my lungs were burning bad and body has got left nothing and my T-shirt was dripping sweat all over the tread mill, then rightly though I decided to pull off as going further will be foolish and would have resulted in serious implications.

That is when I realized that my fitness levels have dropped and Iam nowhere near to what I was .Limbs shaking ,with impossible pain in shins, disappointed, remorse, I managed to get to my place.

GOD!!!! This is not fair

It took me nearly 12-15 months to lose the flab and to get to stage where I was, It wasn’t easy either . I was off sugars, alcohol , saturated fats, Non-Veg etc…Running on tread mill for 5-6 days a week like a mad dog.

Now, everything has been squandered, and in only 3 months. Scales have added 3-4 kilos to my stats, but being honest my body feels like its carrying bit more than that, and my flab ,let me know if any of you want to change your car tire.

One thing I got to confess here is , It’s just not lack of workouts that did me, During these 3 months I picked up alcohol after 2.5 years, and Non –Veg after nearly 3 years, and I guess my smoking has gone bit overboard in these 3 months.Too much of partying didn’t help the cause either.
Whatever the reasons are, its bit frustrating to lose a year and half’s work in 3 months.
I often keep wondering about relation between time and phenomenon of creation and destruction. Why does it take ages to build a structure which can be brought down in couple of seconds? Why can’t be it Vice versa? Same applies to relationships, which can merely end on a slip of tongue and Iam sure everyone agrees it takes hell lot of words and many more actions to get into relation.

So complains aside, I now realized its easy squander away hard earned things if you don’t honor them.

AFTER A WEEK, PROGRESS

OK!! Now picture isn’t that bad either!! I been to gym all week looks like Iam making good progress, took a oath to stay away from alcohol for a month. Trying to manage my smoking bit better, though quitting is not an option

Cheers Everyone

I promise next article won’t be personal crap or this boring

Cutting Deep on existing wounds .May result in intense bleeding or Makes you Immune of Pain

What a painfull end to an exciting five days , Usual norm at the end of close encounters is to say " Well !! the better team won" , and on this sunday not even any one fom the winning side has uttered that phrase ..that for me epitomises the match

It was match full of events, bitter ones if you got blue gear on your head. And they got every right in using all the excuses,but nothing on earth would justify not playing out nine deliveries when you got 3 men to go. So after all the symapathy its right to say India squandered it away.( well...Umpires Pushed it to Draw from an Indian Win ...Indians helped by Umpires pushed it to Aussie Win)

I really do find it funny when people debate about integrity etc.... Well...let me say...every team is playing for a win these days( and Darling its 2008)... Words like Integrity,Honesty...are permitted in law books and press conferences. Iam Sure India would have done the same thing if they were going to have crack at Australia in Final Session...Rewind Back Kolkatta 2001..So for me thats not a big Issue ....and Just FYI theren't many hypocrytes who can come close to Ponting on Hypocracy scale ...He Knows all that Integrity thing is show off. and nothin like that exists in game ...

I guess Its up to Umpires, take decisions on their Instinct rather than reputation of appealing player , they should stop judging palyers...treat em all as Dishonest crooks

I some times do get the feeling that Mr .Bucknor watches ( Aussie)Player Body Language when making decisons..This theory of Bucknor bailed Aussies out from a potentially match losing situation

After MCG, Indians were badly hurt, they did show a great character in sydney to put Aussies under pressure for the most of the match ....its obvious they are hurt as their sweat is being pissed by umpires down the drain. And that does aggrevate the pain they are in

Coming to Aussie show.....Australia took their biggest gamble in reporting India's premier off spinner for Racist remarks( This is a big joke....I don't think any Cricketer can get under the skin of this Aussie team verbally). Assuming Harbajan has said what ever Symonds Claimed to have said...I don't think it would have mattered much to him...By the way where on earth is using Noun of a specie is Considered Racist....and Iam sure it wouldn't have for these thick skinned cricketers.
I guess this sole show is to attack the morale of visitors ..(who are already hurt and bleeding )and dig deep in to their wounds and aggravate bleeding ...as they say, they might bleed to death in Perth...but even if an ounce of life is left in them...beware.....they will be immune to pain then. So lets wait and watch if this gamble pays off